Last week, after coming home from work and feeling extremely guilty that these guys (see pic below, Toby on the left / Cora on the right) had been outside without much attention from us, I decided to bring them inside. I have done this a thousand times so to say it was routine is an understatement.
They were extremely excited and happy to be inside. Before I could even open the doors (see those double wooden doors in the background of the picture above, yeah those doors), they burst through and knocked me down in the process. I heard three or four pops in my knee and was on the ground in pain. I knew right away I had done something to my knee, my good knee no less. I immediately started going into shock, shaking and shivering, amongst the endless stream of screams and tears. Thank god those big dogs are about the right height. I used Toby’s back as a crutch to get me to the couch while I waited on J to get home. What’s an injured girl to do alone? Cry for help on social media of course. Thanks to all my friends who helped me through that time. It was scary being injured and alone.
I ended up at the emergency room, getting an x-ray, a shot of something to help with the pain, crutches and no diagnosis. I was told to call first thing in the morning to get an ultrasound appointment. My appointment is next week, yes a whole 9 days after the incident. Knees are not an emergency Ma’am, I was repeatedly told. ANNOYING! Three days after that appointment, I have to follow up with my family doctor to get the results, then if needed, make an appointment with a specialist. Follow up..Wait..No diagnosis..Referral..Follow up..Wait..No diagnosis..Referral..Wow, this process is productive to my health and makes total sense.
I live in Canada, I appreciate the free-ness of all this, but the timing is leaving me BEYOND FRUSTRATED!!! This is crazy ridiculous. By the time I might have to see a specialist, it will be weeks, probably closer to a month or more after the whole thing happened. How is that positive for my knee health? I realize a knee is not an “emergency” but shit this waiting around, hobbling around on crutches sometimes without and not knowing if I am hurting it more or doing what I am suppose to be doing is getting out of hand.
How is it doing I keep getting asked. Well… I’ve had knee injuries in the past. This one is different. It feels weird, its very stiff, and when I bend it the knee feels like things are balling up on the inside and resisting the bending motion. Almost like something is preventing it from going any further and sometimes it feels like something is moving around when I bend it. The only time it feels normal is when its frozen from my best friend, frozen peas. Swelling is minimal and concentrated to the inside of the knee, pain is more muscle achy now and goes all the way up into my quad muscle. Before, it was sharp pain but easily managed with meds. Now, with the muscle achy-ness, its more annoying and I haven’t found anything to take the edge off. I’m tired, bitchy and exhausted, but hanging in there and hobbling around on crutches. I just want to start feeling better. This lying in one place with frozen peas is getting a little old already.
Thankfully, J has been a great help, as has Danger. They both have stepped up to make sure things around the house are taken care of, the dogs are taken care of, and I have the things I need without having to go too far on my legs. I have been trying to go to work and return my life back to normal. It’s hard and I am ready to move to forward, whatever that may bring.
For now, I am cherishing the best medicine a momma can have.